Today has seemed hectic though I'm not sure why, we stayed home all afternoon homeschooling and me trying to catch up on housework here and there and attempting to get some bills paid. It just seems that I have a lot on my plate. Then before we know it it's time to take Isaac to his Taekwon do class and then rush back home and scramble to get dinner on the table. We usually go to the library on Tuesday mornings for Madelyn's preshcool story time but skipped it today since she's not feeling well and now she really, really wants to take ballet class. This makes me so happy since I took dance classes all through my childhood and loved it so much and to this day I miss it and wonder why I ever stopped. But how are we going to afford lessons? and how are we going to fit this into our already busy life? I'm sure we'll find a way we always do. Luckily theres a dance studio at the same place that Isaac takes Taekwon do, but the classes are in the morning time and since Michael has class I'm going to have to find someone (Grammy??) to watch the boys, there's no way Josh will sit through the classes at his age and Madelyn won't let me leave her there at least not in the begining so I've got to figure these things out. Hopefully it works out I can't wait to see her with her hair up in a bun, wearing a pink tutu and ballet shoes:) Even if it's just once or twice, I mean there's no guarantee that she'll like it. So I'm sitting here procrastinating when I need to be cleaning up dinner and getting the kids in the tub, but I can't bring myself to the task just yet. The kids are entertaining themselves by racing match box cars in the kitchen, there'll probably be a few lost under the fridge and the oven by the time they're done......now they driving them off the dinning room furniture....I think they're getting carried away and I'm going to have to intervene soon. Oh well more later.................

I spoke too soon....we just had a stomach bug fly around our house. It wasn't too bad and we're pretty much over it, but now Madelyn and Josh are coming done with the sniffles...here we go again!!

We went to the circus today and it was AWESOME!!! The kids were really good and seemed to enjoy it alot. I was impressed that Josh sat through the whole 2hour show just fine. Some of the things they did were just down right amazing and I found myself unable to breathe during parts of it.

Today was the first day that it actually felt like Spring....ahhh yes Spring was in the air. It was a balmy 37 degrees above zero, snow was melting and we were all hot wearing our coats. I am hopeful that this wonderful weather will continue!! Spring for me though is a bittersweet time of year. While I look forward to the warmer days of summer, spring also means that the time for me to send Isaac to to Boston for the Summer to see his dad is near:( He leaves May 21 and is flying by himself for the first time. He is going to be gone for 3 months!!! That is such a long time and I'm going to miss him soooo much. He is super excited about his trip though and is really looking forward to seeing his Dad. I am happy for him that he has such a great relationship with his father despite the distance and his summer is full of fun, love and adventures, he is truly blessed to be able to do all the things he does. Despite all that I still sometimes wish (selfishly) that I didn't have to share him. That I didn't have to miss a single adventure or tear or smile. But thats the way things are and I can be thankful for the fact that I don't miss those things when he's with me, that I am able to be home and with him all day everyday and for that I am truly blessed.

Wow it's been almost a month since my last post. We have been busy busy! Spring is on it's way and the days are getting longer and warmer, ahhh it's so nice to see the sun again after a long cold winter. It was 37 degrees today and we were sweating. I even saw snow melting...but we'll probably have snow for a while yet there's a whole lot of it. The kids are doing great, no one is sick and I hope it stays that way. We went to the ice park and had some good family fun sliding down giant slides of ice and yes it's really cold on your bum, thank God for snowpants!!! The kids really enjoyed it and it was such a beautiful day. Isaac is doing awesome in Taekwon do and has earned 5 stripes on his belt he'll be testing for his yellow belt before we know it. School is going well but it feels a little like it's crunch time trying to complete everything before the school year ends. Madelyn is progressing and learning her letters and all that jazz, she's really good with numbers maybe she'll be good at math...that would be awesome since it's not my best subject by far. I'm thinking of starting her on kindergarten next year since she's homeshcooling I figure why not worse case is she does kindergarten twice and she's still on track since she has 1 more year before she's "officially" old enough, Little Joshie is still a stinker and not sleeping through the night yet. It's amazing how much I've adjusted to getting so little sleep. He likes to run around the house yelling "beat that" I don't know what thats about but he sure gets a kick out of it. I just can't believe how much and how fast they are growing the time is just wizzing by and I'm trying to enjoy every second of it but it's so easy to get lost in all the every day stuff, that I really need to take a step back and remember what is important in life...does any one really care but me that my sink is always full of dishes, or that theres toys strewn about all over the place or that we didn't get history done today? I don't think so and if they do then who cares what they think!!! Life is too short to stress over all the little stuff your kids are only kids once and you can't ever get that time back so I'm learning that it's ok to let some things go...I'll evenutally get to them but for now there is so much "life" happening and I don't want to miss any of it.